You know it’s eventually coming. Difficult times, testing of your faith, those moments that take your breath away. We prepare for them, we say we have faith in the midst of them, we sing songs that declare, “I believe in the power of Jesus”. I will stand firm.
We cling to the truth, “to be strong and courageous“. And then it comes, the moment that we prepared for. It is in that moment that we realize, nothing can prepare you.
We can only hold on to the One who holds the future, take a deep breath of the Holy Spirit and ask Him to fill us with His strength, power and His peace that passes understanding.
Watching my mom struggle with health issues and dementia has been one of those moments. While I was weeping just this morning my husband asked me, “What brings the tears”? My response was that there’s so many things that bring the tears. I thought I would share them with you today.
for what has been lost
for what is being taken away-her memories, her ability to think clearly.
for the unknown because, I do not know how long I’ll have her.
because, I know she’s frustrated and feels so alone.
because, I don’t know what to do
because, selfishly I want it to be over
and I’m not quite sure if I’m strong enough to walk through it.
It’s a good thing that I know Jesus! It’s a good thing that my mom knows Jesus and that even in her confusion He is with her, that he loves her, and he has prepared a place for her.
Today I choose joy in the unknown. These moments with my mom have taught me that I don’t have to have it together. It’s ok if my mom doesn’t have to have her memories because we know the One who holds the future. It is He who is holds her in His arms and who loves and cherishes her.
I choose joy today because, He did not give me a spirit of fear but of a sound mind and of power and I rejoice in that today.
I still believe in His goodness and embrace the joy that is found in Him alone!
2015 really? How did that happen? Just yesterday we were all freaked out about Y2K! Hard to believe that was so long ago! On Facebook they have been compiling a year in review for everyone. I wonder how they go about choosing what is included? This last year I have had some fabulous experiences and some painful ones.
God has blessed our lives with both pain and joy. They seem to go hand in hand. Often on the same day we may experience a roller coaster of emotions.
We visited Colombia and Mexico where we loved Children in Jesus name. Pain and Joy
I said Goodbye to a dear friend who now is with Jesus and pain free. Pain and Joy
We travelled to see family in Pennsylvania and California with my mother who has dementia. Pain and Joy
I completed a 350 mile, 6 day bicycle trip. Pain and Joy
Jesus also experienced great pain and great joy.
He was amongst His creation Pain and Joy
He healed even when there was disbelief Pain and Joy
He taught the truth even when others turned away Pain and Joy
He loved with all that He had even when the crucified Him. Pain and Joy
He watches as His children love others even though many turn away. Pain and Joy
We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. Hebrews 12:2 NLT
I am praying that in 2015 I will become more aware of the joy in the midst of whatever may come. Thank you Jesus for showing us how to do that and making it possible through your strength.